Turning point
Today was one of the best days I have had in a long time. I attributed this to finally being open and receptive to whatever good the Universe was sending my direction. I started a 9-hour audio book on The Healing Codes, which I managed to finish in a day and a half. The whole week I felt alive, free of stress and physical pain, and so clear-headed that it was almost like a euphoric feeling. For whatever reason, things were just clicking. I like to think of this day as the beginning of my “spiritual awakening.” I was curious, motivated, and open to whatever the Universe was going to send me. I desperately wanted a break from trying to control every scenario in attempts to decrease my odds of repeating negative experiences / memories / etc. It was simply exhausting. I made a subconscious decision not to fester in this negative space any longer. The lows sucked, but the highs I figured by mere contrast, had to be high. I started journaling more and documenting some of my thoughts, which ultimately gave me the idea to share this in case other people might be going through similar experiences.
Once I gave myself permission to explore memories, I tapped into some of the sense memories that I had. I have always had very intense connections to the energy of things, usually living. But I can also easily feel the feelings associated with smell, touch, sound, etc. Here are some positive examples I identified right away:
The smell of Lilacs remind me of Easter time with my family and I can FEEL myself back in the yard taking pictures with our Easter bonnets.
The smell of a certain type of plastic instantly takes me back to days of wearing swimmies and the summers my neighborhood friends and I would swim in the pool together.
The smell of gas reminds me of driving around in my father’s 1970 something Buick Skylark and watching him fill up the tank of gas from the passenger seat.
Replaying the song “Wondewall by Oasis” I am immediately brought back to my 8th grade dinner cruise.
Honestly, I can go on and on but I will save you from re-living my life through sounds and smells. The point is, by tapping into the GOOD feelings and memories, I got lost in nostalgia and happy times and started working on honing in on and recalling the energy of these memories. I will refer to this as energy surfing in later posts.
