Choices and timelines
My guides often show me images of different lanes of a highway with overpasses and intersections, or sometimes I will see intertwined tree roots intersecting at one big trunk. The message I take from this is that every path and every decision in our life is a choice. With every choice, there is a response and perhaps a change in course. But it’s all leading to the same outcome because our Soul or higher self knows the outcome that it picked to live out in this now time. I hop around energetically between feeling the memories of picking a college, meeting my husband, finding and deciding when to leave jobs, and people that I have interacted with at different points of my life. Every one of these encounters and decisions teaches me something. Rather than thinking of things as “why did that happen to me?” I think instead, what was I meant to learn from that situation/person/thing?
If you understand that everything is a choice, you can also learn to look at everything from a state of flow, rather than from a state of victimhood. For example, I could choose to look back on the house fire and think wow, that really sucked and I wonder what I did to deserve that. In reality, it was exactly the lesson my soul agreed to and needed to learn in that now moment. It taught me about humility, my own power, and what it means to truly feel out of control. Perhaps without that experience, I would not have reached my rock bottom (or experienced my dark night of the soul). Without that, I would never have listened to the nudge from the Universe to examine my own thoughts and beliefs and to learn about how I was choosing to respond.
There are many points in my life I can look back on and say “that was a turning point.” I could have stayed with that job, but I took another one, or I could stayed in that relationship, but I didn’t. If I follow the doors that opened because of these decisions I can focus on what I learned as a result. It is always easy to fall into victimhood and the “what if’s,” but if you trust in your higher self, you know that you “had your back,” so to speak, and that all of those decisions led you to where you are right now and that is exactly where you need to be. If you recall, our higher self does not operate in the realms of time and space or from a place of judgement. It knows only the frequency of truth and love, so it will guide you there and nudge you along the way, whether or not your ego understands or tries to step in.
I happened to be listening to Lorie Ladd today who talked about a deck of card analogy. She said we are all holding a deck of cards that we are choosing to look at (or not) in any given moment. There is a sovereignty that we get when we realize that we have the power to choose what to look at, while also honoring the feelings and emotions that come up on the human journey. “The courageous human is one that looks at and feels every card.” Here is a 4 minute clip on this subject: https://youtu.be/BdsvTG-1VIA .
Similar to all of the other topics that we are shining light on, everyone is feeling their own truths and certain things may resonate, or not resonate. There is no judgement when you remove any external pressure, assumptions, or “rules” to the observation.
When I look at something, I allow myself to feel the emotions, but can also choose to detach as an observer, watching myself experience any scenario. There is a sense of freedom from this place of observing even while we are holding and feeling the emotions that unfold as light warriors. I am only now at a point where I have become confident in myself and can trust to just fall, allow and receive. I don’t mean this in a religious sense. I mean it in an “I am” sense. I have been stripped down and vulnerable and raw, and I know that my higher-self has my back. All of the synchronicities that have culminated to this now moment confirm to me that my higher self is looking out for me. I have hit rock bottom before so I am not afraid of what that would look like. When in resonance you are in a different feeling and frequency than the frequency you experience when you are sitting in the lower states. Every moment is a choice, and I trust now that if I jump, my higher self will be my net.
